Sunshine

I LOVE THIS WEATHER!



Its so close to spring I can TASTE it! That is beyond exciting for me. And between that and then my project on our imaginary baseball/hockey store I am super excited for the season to start.


I am trying to decide if I want to start running. I hate running, but I know that I need to run. Since its starting to get nice out I'm considering running down at the park and see if maybe I will enjoy it more.

In light of ball season coming up Dad and I have laid down a challenge! I have already given up chocolate (89 Days!!) and he has already given up chips. However both of us eat waaaaay too much of what the other has already given up. So today we laid down the challenge of giving them up. So I give up chips and he gives up chocolate.

Naturally, I am going to win this game. Muahahahaha

Forever and a Day

Ahhh. so I havent had much time to update, between school deadlines, work schedules, training times and mad partying I havent had much time to myself!

This diet might be killing my soul. Actually. I take two days, TWO, to not write in a journal (because I am currently between notebooks) and I gain 4 lbs!!! That is cruel punishment! And its hard on my confidence.... It makes me doubt myself, in not only this but my entire life. Like if I cant accomplish this one thing, the one thing I want more than anything else in the entire world, how on earth am I going to become a business owner or an even better pitcher when those things are second to this.

I had an intense emotional convo with a friend last night, he doesnt know this but I cried, for him and me and her. I hate going to bed after something like that, cause i wake up the next day and I'm still miserable (mind you I doubt running on four hours of sleep helps either). And I feel like disgusting this morning cause i ate some nachos last night. I dont even think I like them that much anymore... its just a comfort thing for me now. And I wish I could break the habit. Ugh....